I was wrong, and embarrassed. That test included content I hadn't seen (let alone thought about) in years. Parallel comparisons, modifiers, etc. I scored in the top 30%, but I was discouraged. I can retake the test in two weeks, and I'm studying for it (and editing) with my Writer's Guide book. It includes very helpful examples, reasons for rules, and easy-to-understand language.
I've hit a bit of a block, though. I'm feeling very poorly, since I went to bed with terrible queasiness. I woke up midnight, and had to rush to the bathroom to prevent throwing up in bed. I woke up feeling like junk, and I really just want to sleep off this crappy day. It's difficult to be productive when you physically hurt, but my feelings of guilt and uselessness are more overwhelming.
Growing up, my mother was always doing something. I never saw her idly sitting on the couch, watching a show. She was usually cooking, cleaning, or organizing while casting a glance at her favorite program. She encouraged me to be the same way. If I was loitering in front of the television, she'd stick the utensil drawer in front of me and suggest straightening it out while I watched TV. Now, I have this unsettled feeling in the pit of my stomach from inactivity. My place is clean, I don't have homework anymore, and the TV is off- but I still feel like I'm being lazy. Even though I tell myself I'm looking for a job while I'm online, the lack of physical exertion feels wrong.
I had to take a few minutes off from studying to document my emotions. They are as much of a distraction as my stomach woes.
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